Only one day away from being 39 weeks pregnant. I honestly thought this day would never get here! It's been a long grueling road, filled with every challenge imagineable, but at last I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am scheduled for my C-section on December 31st at Noon. So, I will be bringing in the New Year with a pink little bundle of joy wrapped up in my arms. What a way to bring in 2010! Hopefully she will be a sign of new joys to come our way this year. I will sure be happy to say goodbye to 2009. I think I can honestly say this has been the most challenging year of my life. Full of many losses and many heavy hearts. Looking back at my life two years ago, never would I see myself standing where I am today. Everything has changed, and I don't mean just the shape of my body! Well, here are some pictures of our little thumper tucked away safe in Mommy's tummy! Yes, I've been calling her thumper because she's always thumping me like the rabbit Thumper (and of course we don't have a name for her yet...ooopse!)

Baby Belly on 12-04-09 (36 weeks) Baby Belly dressed up for Halloween 10-31-09 (31 weeks) Baby Belly on 10-09-09 (28 weeks)

Baby Belly on 9-11-09 (24 weeks)

My baby Girl at 21 weeks

My baby at 14 weeks

My Baby at 14 weeks

In my 31 years here on earth, this is the first Christmas Eve that I have ever spent alone. I usually travel to Arizona to see my Mom and Sisters for Christmas, but this year I am 39 weeks pregnant and therefore unable to travel and make the trip. My heart goes out to those who have nobody to spend the Holidays with. I have been so very blessed with a close knit family all these years and now I know what it's truely like to spend one alone (and let me just say that it SUCKS!!!!!) When Sienna and Tristan went to their Dads house this afternoon I did manage to have a little fun with Kyla. My Kyla Bear and I ventured down to the beach in our little Santa hats to stick our toes in the sand and watch the Christmas Eve sunset (something I have never done, guess it's a Christmas Eve of firsts) After the sun set on another Christmas Eve gone by, we stopped for our traditional pizza feast. On the way home Kyla fell asleep with visions of sugar plums and wouldn't wake up for anything, so I sat alone in front of the twinkling lights of the tree and tried to enjoy my pizza in the uncomforting chilling silence of an empty house. It was the still silence that brought me to tears and my heart felt so empty! I miss my family and I miss my babies! I have tried all day to be positive and thankful for what I do have, but being pregnant and alone at the Holidays is unbearable!!!

My snuggle Bear, giving Mommy some loves at the beach!

My Boo Bear!

The Christmas Eve Sun setting at our place on the beach.

Kyla bear, Mommy bear, and baby bear snuggling on the beach and watching the sunset. Thank you to the kind Elf who spotted us in our Santa hats down by the shore and strolled all the way down to offer to take our photo! Thank you little elf!

Kyla Dancing and singing to "All the Single Ladies", by Beyonce.